“O my God, in you I trust” Psalms 25:2
1 Samuel 1 through 2:10 was a story that I frequented during my years of struggling with infertility. In them, Hannah pours out her heart to God. There was comfort to my lamenting because God’s word included this mother’s story. Hannah’s cries of agony echoed mine. Her loving husband couldn’t understand her longing. She wanted a baby.
Now 21 years after God opened my womb, and that same baby is 8615 miles away in Africa and I am reminded there was more to Hannah’s story. God opens her womb; she gives birth to Samuel and then she gives us a beautiful example of a mother who truly trusted God.
“For this child I prayed, and the Lord has granted me my petition that I made to him. Therefore I have lent him to the Lord. As long as he lives, he is lent to the Lord.” (vs. 1:21-28)
The same God who answered my prayers, delights in a generous outpouring of His care and I can trust Him. I know He loves my children with a perfect love as the perfect parent. I know God understands “letting go” and He is the greatest example of sacrificial parenting. So why do I wrestle with fear over the safety and care of them? Why do I fret their future?
With the recent news events of parents losing their children through tragedy, I’ve become overwhelmed with the “what if” scenarios. When Ruth informed us that she want to travel to Zanzibar for a few days; anxiety swelled and my heart raced. “What if?” Claire will be leaving for the entire month of July and I cannot catch my breath. “What if?” Max wants to camp outside by himself. “What if?” I cannot fall asleep and my dreams are fitful. “What if?”
I want to have a life that never doubts the goodness and faithfulness of God. He IS good and He IS faithful, no matter the “What if?” But my doubt leads to fear. Fear steals my peace; it steals my rest; and fear shakes my confidence. 1 Peter reminds me, “be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” Fear is my enemy!
Hannah’s example of total surrender of her child’s life exemplifies a mother who trusts in God. Hannah is a mother who doesn’t’ let fear dictate her days. She is kept in “perfect peace” her “mind is stayed on Him, because (she) trusts in Him.” (Isaiah 26:3) Hannah understood God’s care and concern for her and for her son; whatever the ifs!
I can miss out on a lot of joy and miss evidences of grace while bogged down in worry and fear and “What if?” But I want to remember Hannah’s whole story, not just the fulfillment of her hearts desire. I want to remember the part of Hannah story where she sings and where she trusts.
“My heart exults in the Lord; my horn is exalted in the Lord. My mouth derides my enemies, because I rejoice in your salvation.” 2 Samuel 2:1-2
Giveaway Week #2
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